>One of my favorite things about God is that we can always begin again. . . . and again. . . . and again.
Pastor’s message today dug at my heart. He talked about what our purpose is for the kingdom. I think that I am finally letting God back in where He wants to be because for the last six months I have leaned on God, I have held onto God, I have relied on God, I have been this pitiful small person before the Lord and in that, I forgot my purpose not only in the work of God but also in my personal life. In the wanting to shield my heart, I quit making myself available to God like I needed to. I leaned on Him but didn’t allow myself to invest in anything except for my husband and kids and a few close friends.
Days have went by without doing anything at work but playing games or hanging out on facebook when I should have been working. Days have went by with no laundry being done or supper cooked. Not everyday, of course, but enough days that it is noticeable. Enough days that my work suffers and that my husband has to say, Hey Honey, “Let’s catch up on laundry tonight” or the kids get excited because I am actually cooking and not doing Wendy’s or the Chicken Strips and Fries that our FryDaddy cranks out on a regular basis.
I cannot remember the last time I cried so hard before God and the only words I could say were “I want to be different but I don’t know how” “I want to work with a purpose but I don’t know how” “Please fix me, Please change me” “I want to be different but I don’t know how”. All I know is that when I got up from the altar I felt like it was one of those again moments. I know that tomorrow God is going to once more, again, help me to find my purpose in the natural and the spiritual.
What do you need to begin again today? Is it with your family? Is it at work? Is it in your time of worship and prayer? Whatever it is, God is an again kind of God and He loves us, again. . .and again. . . and again.